As I write this, I’m sitting next to the sleeping form of my youngest. Soft wisps of silky hair frame her face. She has the longest eyelashes I’ve ever seen on another human being. With the sweetest button nose, her little silhouette is just perfect.
She is silent, quiet, still. If I’m being honest, it’s actually the only time she’s ever still. She is my runner, my mover, my doer. She’s always busy working on something. But as soon as her head hits the pillow, her brain does exactly what it should do at bedtime.
It is still. And she crashes.
I sit here next to her, and I envy her the stillness. How easy it is for her to go from 60 to 0 in the space of a few minutes. My mind can’t seem to shut off these days.
You see, I am a doer. I cook, I clean, I organize, I have various responsibilities with my church family. And chances are, if I don’t have something to keep my hands busy, I FIND something to keep my hands busy. I’m addicted to busy!
I never sit still.
And when I actually find, no, MAKE time to sit – to be still – my brain is not still. It is still thinking, planning, running through all of the things left to get done. I can’t seem to make it stop!
Recently, God has brought my little family through some very difficult times. We have been through hell and back.
Even now, He is leading us into another scary season of transition. I’m finding myself overwhelmed at all of the questions and what-ifs. What if we make the wrong choice? What if we miss what God is really trying to say? How can we logistically make this work?
My thoughts are getting the best of me. And if I’m being honest, I’m having a really hard time just being still. Being still and knowing He is God, and He’s got this.
I do trust Him. I hated the things we went through, I don’t understand why He allowed them, but I trust Him.
I KNOW He’s God, I KNOW He’s in control, I KNOW He’s ordered our steps. But transferring that heart knowledge to my head has been a struggle at times.
You’ve heard the verse in Psalms 46 where God commands the Isrealites, “Be still, and know that I am God.” It is a scripture that is inspirational, well known, slap-it-on-a-coffee-mug good! But what you might not know is the context of this verse.
The verses before describe some pretty massive destruction that God brings His people through. Wars raging, mountains moving, utter desolation. THEN He says “be still.”
When all is not well, He is sovereign. When our world is falling apart, He is in complete control. After the storms have finally passed, He is still there.
“Be still, and KNOW that I am GOD.” We know this verse. But do we walk in it?
Or do we try to play God? Do we subconsciously think that our measly attempts at righteous living should be enough to live a life free from trial, from persecution, from suffering?
When we are overwhelmed with our job or our kids or our other responsibilities, do we rest in the knowledge that God is our peace?
When we have more month than money, do we trust that God is our provision?
When hardships come, when our faith is tested, when relationships fail, do we choose to be still? To know – really, truly KNOW – that He is God?
Today, no matter what is going on in your life, I pray you make the time to sit, to be still, and KNOW that He is God. To acknowledge He is still good and His ways are perfect. To walk in the confidence that He is guiding your steps.
May we take our thoughts captive, truly be still, and find rest in His sovereignty.
God’s got this.
What is something you will intentionally NOT do today? How will you choose to “be still” today?