A few months ago I started reading through the Bible chronologically and while I was reading through the early books like Leviticus I had a hard time understanding the point of it all. Anyone else feel me here? Or am I the only one that gets stuck in the books of Leviticus and Deuteronomy?
Hear me out, here. I am a searcher. If I have a question about something I ask, I look it up. I want to understand why and how and the origin of the topic in question. Some might feel me here and others might look at me like I’m crazy.
This need for answers can be good. I like to learn and seek understanding BUT this can also be a hindrance for me.
I can become too focused on researching the meanings and origins of the passage that I forget to allow my heart to just be open to God’s voice. To His urging and breathe in His Word. I’m too busy trying to understand that I don’t allow Him to speak to me while reading His Word!
This is what was happening while reading through all the laws in the Bible. I kept wondering why were there such specific laws about EVERYTHING? I mean even down to the dimensions of the temples and what materials they used!
I became so obsessed with trying to understand the point of each law. What was the point in God making His people do such specific things all. the. time.
I became so frustrated with the text because I just couldn’t understand!
After stewing on this for weeks. I finally had to move on. I wasn’t getting anything out of it. I wasn’t learning anything. I was too stuck on the why, why, why?
It was only when I decided to move past it and I allowed God to calm my mind that I began to understand. I was able to read commentaries and pick my husband’s brain about it to help me come to an understanding of why God would make such specific laws. Laws that, to me, seemed a little pointless!
As anyone who has read the bible knows, the Old Testament is the old covenant. This was before Christ became the “ultimate sacrifice” for the sins of those who believe in Him.
I was reading these passages through the lens of the New Testament, through my knowledge of Christ. But, at that time in the Word, they hadn’t been made whole in Christ yet!
So, how could they atone for their sin? They couldn’t just ask for forgiveness because Christ hadn’t come yet. So animal sacrifice was the way they atoned for their sins before Christ. Sin was so evil, so bad, so disgusting that there HAD to be a difficult list of laws. This was the only way they could serve God, to follow each and every law. These laws were to stress just how bad sin was and is!
Think about it, if sin was so easy to atone for if sin was so easy to be forgiven for, then why would we need Christ?
In today’s world, in my life, we so easily take for granted the forgiveness of Christ. We do something bad, we feel guilty, we ask for forgiveness and we move on. Simple as that right?
No. And the Old Testament proves that it’s not as simple as that.
This got me thinking about sin. The price of sin. And specifically the price of MY sin.
Christ died for that jealousy we may feel. He was crucified for that lust we might struggle with. His feet were nailed for greed. His side was pierced. His head crushed with a crown of thorns. All for our selfishness, our bitterness, our sin.
I so often shrug this off. So often I put it out of my mind. I don’t think about it or meditate on it when I sin. Especially when I sin.
I would love to say I do this because the thought of my Savior sacrificing himself for me is just too much to bear. But no, that might be part of it but not all of it. I’m not saying that it doesn’t make me cringe thinking of His body hanging there because of my sin. But I think mostly I don’t like to think of it because I’m selfish.
I don’t want to think about this because then I would feel guilty. I might feel convicted that my life doesn’t always honor this loving Son who died for me. I would have to check my heart. And then I would have to do something about it. And that’s hard. That’s a difficult conversation with yourself and with Him.
But let me tell you something I’ve learned over the course of my thirty years. There’s peace on the other side of that conversation. There’s a love that you can’t find anywhere else. And a joy that is incomparable.
It’s not until we realize the depravity of our human nature that we can clearly see the promise of the cross. It’s not until we look ourselves in the mirror and see that we are not worthy of Christ dying on the cross that we can understand the true meaning of mercy, grace, and love.
We have to be willing to admit that it’s not our own goodness that saves us. It’s literally only by the grace of God that we are saved. Even in our wickedness and sin we are saved. Because He is good, He is sovereign, He is mighty.
We must each come to this realization. Will it be easy? Absolutely not. It will be the hardest thing you have to do. To look your sin right in the eye and fully understand that Christ died for that. It will be hard. And it will put things into perspective.
Christ DIED y’all. Was tortured and hated. For our sin. So that we could live freely in Him.
Let that sink in. The weight of sin is His death. Not just any death. Certainly not yours or mine. The weight of our sin is HIS death.
With this “light bulb” moment in my studies of the early books of the Old Testament, I am learning to put aside my selfishness. I have meditated on the cross and what Christ has done for me. And it made me realized that my sin isn’t worth it. My sin isn’t worth Christ dying. And yet He did. Because He is Love. What a humbling truth.
So, we must have that realization. And we must never allow it to because muted in our lives. We must never allow this picture of true Love to be faded in the business of life.
Allow this to penetrate your heart today. Feel the weight of what was given so that we could know our Father. So that we could have a personal relationship with Him. So that we don’t have to follow a million specific laws to be forgiven. All we have to do is know Him and ask for the forgiveness! Allow this to direct your steps. To check your heart when you feel that sin creeping in. Will we be perfect? No. Will we fail? Yes.
But with the weight of His death and the hope and freedom that it brings in the forefront of our hearts and minds, it will make denying that sin a little easier.
It’s easier to give up our sin and to turn to Him when we know the gravity of His sacrifice.
I don’t write these words to condemn anyone or to point fingers. I write these words because so often I forget the price that was paid for me. I go about living my little life, thinking all is good, thinking I deserve this good life I have. When in reality, my sin sent my Savior to the cross. Sometimes I need to stop and meditate on this. I need to feel the weight of it in my heart so that I can live more intentionally for Him.
When I know what it cost Him, when I know the weight of my sin, I can appreciate the grace I have in Him more, I can rejoice in the freedom that it gives me. I can relish in the mercy and forgiveness that I am given on a daily basis!
My prayer is for each of you to not take this gift of salvation for granted. My prayer is for you to recognize the huge sacrifice that was given for you and the joy that it brings. I pray that we can take moments to allow the weight of this huge gesture of love to motivate us to be more intentional with each word we say, each thought, every action. That we can really be grateful for what our Savior has done for us and that we will share that with others.
Let this not discourage us. No, we are not worthy, but with Christ we are new. With Christ we are forgiven, adopted and loved. Allow this reality to encourage you today. I know it encouraged me! To think that Christ loves me even in spite of my sin is a humbling and amazing thing to know. It brings such a deep joy and I pray it does for you as well! We are new in Christ! Amen!